I'm not depressed

I am just totally not interested..

I am in a bad phase. Maybe I am depressed..
I have to hear my thoughts. Why? To control them? Or just be aware of them? If I am aware of them do I control them? Or is that just the awareness of the fact that they control me?
I have an ego problem. I know. But who doesn't.
You will find me if you look in the garden...

So long